This is a stage in spiritual growth that is never, how shall I say it, Easy. The Breaking Point. The single moment, or a series of Moments where everything coincides to fall apart at your feet in a big crumbling, noisy and dusty finale. We you realize that what you are doing, is exactly where you do NOT need to be. For most of us, this event is catostrophic, we dont feel the cracks, we don't see the weakening of the walls. Some of us know the stress, but refuse to acknowledge it, which in the end, makes the blow out that much more dangerous.
So what do you do when you can feel those walls grinding and cracking and just WAITING TO CAVE? When you see yourself barreling head first into the mushroom cloud of dispair and you are powerless to stop yourself? Then what? What happens when everything adds up and up and up and up and up until you just can't take it any more?
If you change the path you are on before the explosion, then you are left with bigger pieces to put back together, instead of a million smaller pieces that are so unrecognizable all you can do it sit in the rubble and look around in amazement wondering "How did this happen?"
Sometimes these explosions are exactly what we need in our lives to show us that it is time to change. If you keep going back and keep going back, you can just expect more and more explosions until all your fuel runs out.
Most of us aren't self aware enough to see the cracking and the crumbling, and if we are, why are we so resistant to finding a way out? of changing a habit? or rewriting a new future?
When do we find the courage to stand up and say "NO! YOU WILL NOT HAVE ME. YOU WILL NOT SEE ME VULNERABLE. YOU WILL NOT TAKE MY POWER OR MY TRUTH. YOU WILL NOT DEFEAT ALL THAT IS TRULY ME. I SEE YOU. I RECOGNIZE YOU, AND YOU WILL NOT HAVE ME!"
